This post probably has nothing to do with yoga. Although maybe it does, since yoga is life, and life is yoga. First, a little bit of fair warning is in order: This is one of my (hopefully) relatively rare posts in which I simply rant about a day that isn't going quite as smoothly as I would like it to go. If you are feeling blue, maybe it's better to not read this post.
Let me start by describing the feeling-texture of my day so far: The feeling is a bit like being a cow who is trying to drag a heavy cart through thick mud. The cow (in this case, me) pulls with all its might, but the cart moves only a millimeter at a time, if that. I wonder if this has anything to do with the fact that today is a new moon, and/or the fact that today is the day after 12.12.12, and is also Thursday the 13th, to boot.
So, what exactly is going on? Two things really. One is technological/manmade, the other is natural. Let's start with the natural phenomenon first. I seem to have caught a cold from somewhere (probably from people around me who have been feeling under the weather); it's not particularly debilitating (I mean, I'm still blogging...), but it does give one a feeling of blahness that is hard to ignore.
The second phenomenon is technological, man-made, and probably also aggravated by my stubbornness in the face of technological obstacles. Here's what happened: I needed to log onto my workplace's human resources website to get a hold of some personal documents which I need in order to do the transfer paperwork to my new workplace in Idaho. As it's been a long time since I tried to log onto the site, I forgot my password. It also doesn't help that this is one of those super-secure websites that require you to change your password once every six weeks or so... I mean, who the hell can constantly create and remember so many freaking new passwords?
But I decided to try to see if I can somehow jog my memory by trying different variations of the one password that I usually use. So I logged on the first time, and they told me that it's the wrong password. I then tried a second time, and then a third time, and then a fourth time. Still wrong password. Finally I gave up, and clicked the "Forgot my password" link. It directed me to the "Forgot password" page, where it asked for my userid again. And then it politely informs me that I have been locked out of the system! Now that is disturbing: This has never happened to me before. I called HR, and they told me that the system locked me out because of my numerous failed attempts at logging in; it's basically a security feature to lock out would-be hackers. But would a real hacker be as clumsy as I was?
Now I probably have to spend the rest of my day (and go to bed tonight) knowing that something important that I wanted to take care of today wasn't taken care of. Ever had that feeling? It's a bit like, I don't know, having to poop and not being able to. Emotional constipation, if you will. Engaging the bandhas here probably won't help either...