The fog of blahness that shrouded my existence yesterday seems to have lifted, at least for now. Felt pretty good this morning when I woke up. Started my practice at 5:30 a.m., finished in 2 hours flat (full primary +second up to supta vajrasana. Still don't have enough faith in my SI joint to venture up to the LBH postures consistently.) Felt even better after my practice. Doing a deep kapotasana (ankle-grab. This is the second time I have achieved this!) probably helped.
Got to campus at 9:00 a.m. for a department meeting, and taught 2 classes this afternoon. I didn't actually do a lot of teaching, this being the first day of class, but I rediscovered the therapeutic effect of the spoken word. Some famous philosopher (can't remember who exactly) said that humans should be renamed homo logos in place of homo sapiens. This is so, he claims, because we humans only attain our fullest potential when we exercise our language or verbal capabilities (logos in Greek) within a community of similarly verbal beings. There is a sense in which merely being a biological entity does not suffice to make us human: In order to be fully human, we must develop and utilize the ability to use language creatively in communication and connection with others.
Anyway, I discovered that having to raise my voice to speak in front of a group of people (my students) lifted my spirits immensely. I also discovered that teaching is very much like yoga practice. One has to be present in each moment, to fully absorb and understand what students might be thinking, feeling or saying while working incessantly to engage everybody in the class. There is no space to space out.
So it looks like the blahness has lifted, at least for now. Perhaps fighting the battle with blahness is like clearing snow from one's driveway. Snow falls incessantly. In the same way, blahness is continually descending and finding ways to take root in one's everyday life. It is the activity of going about one's life with some sense of purpose (keeping to a daily practice, trying to be productive at work, etc.) that sweeps away this blahness that continually falls in one's life. If one stops for too long, blahness will accumulate, and movement and visibility become harder.