This is what the practice does to me on most days.
But as I was saying, when I woke up this morning, I felt neither exhaustion nor mind-assaulting worry. All there was was this beautiful sense of being in sync with the universe. I'm not sure why this is. I certainly didn't do anything out of the ordinary last night: I watched my usual couple of episodes of BSG, and played a couple of games of online chess (badly, I might add), and then went to bed like I've been doing for the past couple of months. Hmm... could it be that I am actually one of the Final Five, and this feeling of calm is actually a precursor of things to come? Well, this would be nice, but I need to stop deluding myself...
In any case, when I stepped on the mat this morning, I felt this feeling of calmness surround my entire being like a halo. Sounds dramatic, I know, but I'm not usually this dramatic, so I think you can allow me a little dramatic license every now and then :-) In any case, this feeling of calmness was so all-pervading that when I finished five Surya Bs, I suddenly had this sense that I had done enough on the mat for today. I was very tempted to just end my practice right there and then, but I continued anyway; I'm still not sure if it was ego or sheer force of habit that caused me to continue the practice past that point (probably a little of both). I ended up doing my usual practice (full primary and second up to Supta Vajrasana).
Now I can't help but wonder: What if I get this sense of calmness and enoughness frequently from now on, or even everyday? Does this mean that I might one day stop practicing asana altogether? Well, we all will one day stop practicing asana (if nothing else, death will stop us), but that's not what I mean. I mean, what if this feeling of enoughness persists to such an extent and frequency that I no longer feel the need to do any more asana? Well, if that happens, what will I blog about? Science fiction and philosophy, probably (actually, come to think of it, I am already blogging about these). And then I will have to rename this blog Science Fiction and Philosophy in the Dragon's Den. Hmm. Doesn't sound half as catchy as Yoga in the Dragon's Den. Oh well.